Thursday, March 25, 2010

The River of Denial . .. .

and me without a paddle!!! YIKES!

Yep, it is true . . . being human myself, I have taken a few trips down that grand ole river. (It must be grand, we all seem to want to spend so much time on it!!!)
Anyway! Although I have been suspecting the worst for quite a while now, today my fears were confirmed, and my hopes were dashed.
My mom - my amazing, loving, giving, caring mother - is certifiably losing her memory, most probably to Alzheimer's. Like I said, I have been afraid of that for a while, but it seems different now; a doctor, a medical professional, has verified it. They recommend that she not even be in the kitchen unsupervised. (Any of you who know what an amazing cook my mom has always been will appreciate how devastating that is for her family!)
I'm a little sad and mourning, really, the loss of her amazing memory. It still is amazing, about some things. But, since I wasn't around when she was a child, I can hardly dispute the memories that she shares!
I heard a quote . . . I actually think it was on a television program . . . the man said, "I lost my mother 12 years before she died .. . to Alzheimer's!" That is how I feel . .. I am losing her; LONG before I am ready to let her go!!
I'm gonna go, before I depress anyone else!!